This is serious business

Hanya dua perkara saja yang boleh buat aku putus daripada berfikir perkara meresahkan hati iaitu membaca dan menulis.Perkataan yang tercantum menjadi ayat yang bijak bagai melintasi minda mencetus buah fikir yan menggoncang rasa yang telah lama tidur di dalam dada.Aku berkobar-kobar ingin menjalin ayat-ayat yang bermain di fikiran yang keluar kadang kala sembarangan tak kira masa dan di mana.Jika tidak dicurahkan, akan rasa sesak dada umpama menahan rindu pada orang jauh.sakit tak tertumpah rasa.Bait-bait ini ku persembahkan bukan untuk menghibur kamu pembaca ku..tapi untuk jadi pendampingku saat sedih dan pengisi saat kosong.Tiada teman yang sudi bertanya kenapa, tiada orang lalu lalang yang berhenti mahu mengerti.Hidup ini berjalan nampak rata.Naik dan turun itu juga dirasa di dalam sahaja.Bukanlah dilambung bukanlah ditanam.Tapi hidup ini mengajar,cuma kita yang enggan belajar.Cinta penuh dengan janji yang tak kesampaian usahlah dijalani lagi kerana ia hanya indah sementara namun bila kebenaran terserlah lebih sakit daripada kehilangan harta kerana saat itu satu jiwa sudah tertipu, sudah hancur dipijak janji manis yang mengundang bahagia dibelakangnya sengsara.Apalagi diharapkan pada tahun ini yang sudah mahu ditutup oleh manusia.Angka baru hampir mula dibuka.Aku bukakan hati pada mimpi baru.semoga ia membuai jiwa kosong ku ini menjadi realiti.harumnya dapat jua ku cium bukan sekadar ilusi yang ku bina di fikiran mati.

What 2011 mean to me (part 2)

4.Listen

This might be the hardest part coz im kinda stubborn person. I barely listen to others' opinion if dont agree with them..BIG GRIN!...kadang2 sampai ketap gigi tahan hati yang sedang geram.Tapi at the same time i try to listen and understand wha they have to say...well..this is still my big problem..i refuse to listen but insyaAllah i try to be more patient and

BE A GOOD LISTENER...

5. Appreciate

Compliment is something that i keep within myself..so i learn people love some appreciation..show it or at least say it...my students like it...

6.Time

Late!rushing!...still rushing....sigh....buku masih belum bertemu dengan ruas!

actually there are lot more things but i suddenly lost the momentum to continue this entry...wishing everybody HAPPY NEW YEAR...SEE YA NEXT YEAR...ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

What 2011 mean to me?

It means a lot...i learned A LOT!..it doesnt mean years before that i dont learned but this year is another turning point of life...GREAT TURNING POINT...maybe next year i will say it again.HAHAHA!..

1st: Teach.

Being a teacher is not an easy thing.At some point i was so frustrated with myself..i cant control my students..students cant give back the answer i've expected...i feel like a loser standing in front of the class n keep nagging and show fierce face towards my students. I was hungry for their attention..but from time to time..i step back..observe senior teachers around me and the students too..how and why they do it...psychology is important. maybe i need to learn more facts for subject i teach in future.lack on that part too.and JOKES.who doesnt like jokes?? =) and know the right time to show them whose the BOSS since i confront with naughty kids.

2nd: Responsible.

Working in organisation, having a boss, colleagues makes me take RESPONSIBILITY seriously. I used to take it lightly but NOW!i got it straight to my face if i take it lightly im not the only 1 who gets affected but almost the whole organisation!gosh!im super dead if i do that again..so i learned a lesson.Do whatever I got to do.

3rd:Love

Love is suck!..hahahahaha. dont u dare ask me to clarify that.its clear and straight to the point =). but maybe u can put "sometimes" at the end of it.nicer.

TO BE CONTINUE!

1 month to go~

People might looking forward for Christmas...New Year...but im looking forward to see HIM with my bare eyes...in front of me...live

Hello reality!

Twilight view!..enjoying life at kampung...nothing much and just being an observer...masih belum buat apa2 untuk preparation for that E day...my aunt advice selagi tak confirm..jangan diheboh-hebohkan berita tu demi menjaga air muka..so saya bisik-bisik saja lah di sini..cant say it out loud!.....

Im at sipitang literally...thats why im able to be online...somehow i feel bit 'healthier' when im away from virtual world..the Internet!which i depend on so much when i was alone back in keningau....it feel so good to get in touch with my real world..communicate direct to people....ahhhhhh(relieve)

so, plan for tomorrow will be...1st:service my kancil..wow..mengaku itu kereta saya..haha...yaa...somehow memang kena service kereta tu..dah hilang lajak..stress gila bila mo pandu laju2 especially masa mo overtake...2nd :settle roadtax itu kereta juga. So...i got 2 things saja la besok ni.huhu...

Currently sudah 12.16am...tapi mata masih belum mahu pejam...my lil bro buatkan cornflakes+milk for me..we both masih belum tidur ni..dont know why this mata tidak mahu tidur..macam mo cucuk2 sejaaaa rasa...haish....tengok tu betapa borednya kami..makan pun mo digambar..haha...till then! see ya next week!

Note 1

I keep this quote in my blog...so in future..my daughters n sons can read this and understand it....

We need to teach our daughters to distinguish between :

a man who flatters her & a man who compliments her,

a man who spends money on her & a man who invests in her,

a man who views her as property & a man who views her properly,

a man who lusts after her & man who loves her,

a man who believes he’s a gift to women & a man who believes she’s a gift to him..

And then we need to teach our sons to be that kind of man..

Credit to a person who write this..

p/s: itupun kalau blogspot masih ada la.. ='( sedih...semua entry aku di Yahoo 360 kena telan internet...tidak dijumpai d mana-mana...hurmmmmmmmm

Yang dikendong berciciran, yang dikejar..dapat kah?

Terlalu banyak impian tapi satu pun tak jalan..susah jugak kan?...these days aku banyak sangat complaint..pastu bad mood...example?

Scene:Dalam kereta on the way to kimanis....

Ummi: Berapa dulang hantaran?...

Me: 5-7.

Nenek: sikitnya...aritu kawen si Jal banyak ja.

Aku tetiba jadi sensitip!terus sentap.....humpph!

Me: tu semua adat ja tu..kalau boleh, taknak buat pun, menyusahkan ja...

Aku berkedut terus sepanjang perjalanan...

I dont know since when i stop enjoying my life...by the way, aku ajak nenek aku to stay over with me at keningau for 3days...kesian juga dia...makin bored....but! to my surprise..she still humming while cooking! atau tengah buat keja apa2 lah..lipat kain ka..kemas dapur ka.....i dont know about u guys...but aku hanya humming bila aku gembira ja!..haha...dan aku dah lama tak buat macamtu..maybe since i fell in love kot.ceh~...huhu.Malu la..warga emas pun hati manyak sinang..aku muda2 lagi asyik moody ja..cepat tua la alamatnya....

Point to ponder...why do i need to be sad?...fake a smile isnt hard to do..tapi to smile from heart itu la susah....i think i better shut up for a while....i've done too much talking..too much complaining...patutnya kena banyak outdoor activity ni!..kena focus on that E!...for God's sake!...that E??!....piang3!tampar muka sendiri laju2....huhu....

True Color

"Eh, ingatkan pendiam...tapi agak nates (read it backward) juga ko ni"

"Wa..nampak ja baik...tapi kepoh juga makcik ni..."

" Napa baik sangat eh??...semulajadi ka buat-buat?"

"Eh.ingat alim..rupa-rupanya bertanduk juga"

I got that alot...dari dulu sampai sekarang..dari zaman sekolah sampailah zaman kerja.

I dont know..if people see me as im playing hypocrite game here...well i am not.this is me.I am not that type of person who become so friendly and bubbly during 1st meeting..well..depends...all this 'nates', 'kepoh', 'tanduk' what ever u call it is in me....and i love to show it with people that i am comfortable with...

And each of us has dark secret..well..u will be less human if u say u dont have one. As saying that..i do have particular secrets which i only share with people i SUPER SUPER TRUST...im abit saddened when people i trust says as if im pretending being alim when im not..

Im not to be alim...im no angel...ma'sum..im not free from making mistakes...i do write about religion..i do talk about it...practising it when i do and i do advice and remind some people in my life regarding religion...yeah..just advice and remind but not preach i guess....

Im a mess frankly speaking...i got stumbled more than thousand times..i repent and i did the wrong thing again and again...im going crazy over it...all i want is inner-peace within me.so i try to find it in religion...i havent found so called inner peace yet..i dont really know if it really exists..but im trying.that is what bring me closer to my religion.that is why maybe i look alim..but im not.im not here to confess but just to clarify things..i am as u see i am.

Two of my friends in Uni contact me today...they miss me i guess.Isnt that good out of sudden ur friends come and ask sincerely how do you do? =) do that often if u say yes.

berhenti untuk berfikir

Lee Seung Gi fever is over..its finally cured.Lagu2nya sudah menjadi lagu2 biasa yang saya dengar sepintas lalu...which i will sing along only when im in the mood...bukan seperti selalu...bila dengar saja, terus rasa mahu bingkas bangun dan menari. Not anymore...the excitement finally fade away....saat ini aku terasa benar pesanan orang tua-tua...bila suka pada sesuatu,sukalah berpada-pada..jangan terlalu teruja.Kelak yang kamu suka itu mungkin jadi apa yang kamu paling benci..erm....

Aku berfikir dan berfikir....i cant stop thinking.....if only, what if...silih berganti datang menujah minda......keyakinan ku goyah....kasihku menjadi hampa.....

Im having Lee Seung Gi fever rite now!

Ok....i dont really wanna be cured...i want to stay in fever lah kalau macam ni...hahaha....music that we like really depicts our mood at the moment kan?...so for now...err..yes for now...im crazy over this talented-sweet-guy...he can act, he can sing, he is funny..no, i don't understand korean language..totally depends on Eng-sub but i'm obsessed with chinguhanja word at the moment.haha..continue,he is not fall in handsome-category but he is soooooooooooooooooooo sweet n looks humble...why malaysia doesnt has at least 1 performer like him?..ohya, plus....he got soooo smooth skin!...and no plastic surgery..no make up, mascara,heavy dye colour or earrings...he doesn't need them anyway....he is simple!..ok....seee...i cant help it. so guys n girls...today i already invite Lee seung gi to sing two songs for us....do enjoy...sing along if u know..and dance,move ur shoulder atleast.haha!...give around of APPLAUSE!!!!!!LEE SEUNG GI~!!! YEAAAAHHHHHH!!!!!!(HISTERICALLY SCREAMING!!!)...

Will u marry me?

Like the first time